I feel like I’m in a good position
For a while, I’ve been in a position of scarcity The people at GoldenXPR call that Scare City Living in scare city where everything is a threat and where everything feels out of control. I’ve been deep cleaning out my bags and I had multiple tub loads of extremely dirty water I washed my backpack […]
Underwear
I just washed some used underwear I had in a bag I had like underwear and socks in there I made this bag in like January of 2024 And it’s the best thing ever I like perfume and stuff, but there’s something about the pheromones I just go to peace immediately when smelling that stuff. […]
Wednesday – May 8, 2024
Do I believe I can do my job at a high level?
Do I believe I can communicate at a high level? When I say high level, I mean with clarity, purpose, and all the good things. Can I communicate so well that people know what I’m thinking So well that people can see what I’m thinking I learn new things like development and design And I […]
Why don’t I believe I can be more than a body?
I can’t be more than the body because I don’t think rest is the journey. I believe that what is to be created in space is already predetermined, but not the space that exists in between I think about the things I did know and the things I know now Instead of thinking about the […]
I’m Transgender – answers to all kinds of questions
How are you getting your face so smooth with no facial hair? I bought a laser hair removal device on Amazon for about $300 that I can do at home daily and takes about 12 weeks to work In the pictures I take, I have makeup on, so that hides my stubble a bit after […]
Peace of mind. (toes)
Shaving should feel like worshipping your body. I think if shaving feels like a task, you’re doing it wrong. Or you shouldn’t be doing it at all. Waking up shouldn’t feel like a task. It should feel like an act of worshipping your life. We create change in our lives through the things we make […]
I hate the obsession
Planning will not make me feel betterI’m afraid to lose a sense of spontaneity that my ego wantI’m afraid I would never reach my goals if I don’t work tirelesslyI know that’s not trueMy shadow is telling me to not do this in a wayI’m averse to thinking about BriarAnd also averse to not thinking […]
The NBA professional edge
Watching NBA basketball is fun for me Especially the highlights Watching the finesse, power, and talent, they have going on It’s easy to then look at college players, G-league players, and basketball social media influencers and be like, “why aren’t they in the NBA?” I find it easy to get in that mindset From my […]
I’m always afraid.
Tarot: High Priestess I’m afraid to lose my money to not get moneyI’m afraid to feel into the intensity and meaning of my obsessionsI’m afraid if I asked the Universe day over day what was in store for me, it wouldn’t be Briar.I do not want BriarI wish to understand why I truly don’t want […]