I’m not who I want to be
I want to restore my vanity with rest I want to restore my vanity I can’t restore it by holding onto things outside I hold onto things outside because my sadness and grieving has me attached to all that glitters I want the world to be beautiful because inside is not beautiful or something like […]
I have trouble saying no and saying mean things
I have trouble saying no and saying mean things I just typed out like 2000 motherfucking words into my spiritual coaches website and I’m like, PISSED that my shit got deleted The UX is TERRIBLE I seriously have trouble giving people feedback in a political way. In a nice way People ask me for feedback […]
There’s a course inside of all of us
That’s something Chris says a lot It’s like a catch phrase. Edward found that very inspirational When I said that, he instantly clicked onto it. And I was like “why don’t you like my title? Where there’s community, there’s opportunity” So I want to analyze the thought process that says: What stream of thought leads […]
What result am I “trying” to avoid via the addiction?
I’m trying to avoid the result where I’m an outcast I’m trying to avoid the result where I’m wrong Maybe I want to be a politician in the future. What I’m doing now could sabotage that But I don’t really want to be a politician. I just tell myself that as an excuse to not […]
What is true
“She says she’ll change and I see she is working on it” She’s not going to change dude, not that much “It’s a product of her childhood” Of course, it’s all a product of the past That doesn’t make what’s happening day to day not true That doesn’t mean that the past is magically going […]
Love for the Game
I’m feeling good I wrote 3 blog posts today 1 for MagicWillMiddleton.com and 2 for WPCourseGuide.com And I’m feeling prime. My nipples are hard I think my hairline is coming back I’m actually getting younger. I’ve been struggling to get my ass motivated to do blog posts for my business site for a while. WPCourseGuide.com […]
Sometimes when I look at my computer, I have no clue where to go.
Sometimes I’m staring at my screen, and my mind is blank I’m clicking on the wrong things Not working on the right things Just utterly fucked up and misdirected by my own brain There must be some shit I’m avoiding Or some thing I don’t want to do. I’ve been looking at the same tarot […]
Dedication?
I feel like if I were to dedicate myself, I could do anything. I’ve been watching basketball analysis for a long time. Studying people who are great at basketball offers a whole new light to what can be done in life. It motivates me. How these people think about the game they play. How seriously […]
How do you think good bands start?
How do you think good shit starts? Do you think good shit starts because the people all say “hey, we’re really good at this, maybe we should do something here.” Maybe that’s how it works But I think that’s stupid I think good shit starts when there’s a force someone is trying to communicate A […]
Time to record
If you feel anxiety, resistance, or you feel like shit when you’re going to record, then you have a problem. Not like you shouldn’t be doing it, but a problem that needs to be addressed. Because you can push yourself to do anything you don’t want to do, but if your body or mind resists […]